This morning I had a ‘moment’ when I went out of the office for a walk and everyone I passed smiled back at me. As the rain started, the huge drops hit my face and I felt this huge release, like the rain was washing away the self-doubt that had begun to set into my mind over the past few days.
The rain lifted my spirits and uncovered that feeling I love so much sort of like an excited anticipation of… well who knows what! Just life I suppose! BUT GOOD TO BE BACK.. … I feel a new moon coming…
I will admit, probably due to hormones I started to question if I was on the right path this week. Things seem to be changing – but I can’t quite put my finger on it!!!
But I now know – change is good.
Two mornings ago I woke up and I asked the Universe / God / Whoever / to see a rainbow as a sign telling me I’m on the right path and its all going to work out .
All day I looked, and wondered if maybe the photo of the rainbow that came in my Facebook feed was the sign, but I wanted more! My friend said ‘if you want to see one in the sky then you have to be specific and ask for one’ - So i did !
Few hours went by and nothing, so I gave up thinking and again started to question my faith. I started to feel a bit silly – was I being a bit mental asking to see a bloody sign!?
THEN guess what I got at 5pm that evening!!! YUP!!! I was so blown away, I stepped out of the car to this rainbow!!!
I started shaking and started to cry!
The next day, I asked to see a Robin to tell me if i was confusing gut instinct with anxiety that was setting in and causing my mind to cloud. I looked and looked all day and started to think ‘Well Louise, time to think about how you are going to detach and move on’.
I forgot all about the Robin. That evening I found myself in a haze, I was stood with my head resting on the window of the kids room, my mind elsewhere , the sounds of the kids playing in the bath, the music downstairs, all mixed into a mind of wonder about everything – mixed thoughts and contemplation left me gazing out into nothing.
All of a sudden something told me to focus my eyes into the garden… AND SURE AS HELL – I saw a Robin! She flew from the tree to the washing line and then everything started to make a bit more sense.
All these signs are screaming… STOP, LOOK, LISTEN.. stop bloody worrying!!!
Call me mental, or a bit hippy weird – whatever… but I lost my faith. I don’t know what faith it is, but I lost it … and now I have it back again that’s for sure – But this time is stronger with deeper foundations that I created – and no one else!
For the record, I don’t see Rainbows and Robins every day. They are a rarity, its why I asked to see them. Now to get to work on that 5 million pound deal!!!
I KNOW I SOUND LIKE A MENTAL HIPPY – but I wanted to share this with you – because we all have days of self doubt, worry and anxiety – but we just need to keep the faith – whatever that is!
Happy days to you all – keep your mind clear xx
Here is a TUNE that makes you wanna strip off, and dance round like a crazy hippy on acid.. WELL IT DOES FOR ME!!!